Phoenix daydreams: Procrastinating...and holiday photos!

Ok so if I'm honest, I have masses of work to do and I'm putting off starting something as I'm so desperate to post on here. I'm trying to make the most of a child-free afternoon, which is so rare for me that I can't believe I just wrote it! Phil realised when I almost had a breakdown at his reminding me that he was playing golf all of yesterday afternoon and evening that the balance of time out in our house isn't exactly equal - or even close. I think I let it slip a lot because I know the children are difficult sometimes if I'm not there and I just can't be bothered with the hassle - and also, it's hard to say that my time alone is more important than theirs. However, as I'm in danger of becoming a basket-case, I've decided to be more honest about what I need, more accepting of support, and more in touch with what I need in order to stay sane. Which, I think, is writing time, meditating time and calm headspace time. I don't need all of those things every day, but I've been lucky to get one of them once a month lately, and that's not enough.

So, today I've had time to do a meditation on goal setting sent by my doula tutor, do some journalling and thinking about what I need to change, send some work-y type emails and catch up on here. Hooray! I also plan to do a piece of work before the troops arrive home, but it's not long or involved so I'm hopeful, and I feel like these things were more important to me today.

So I wanted to add some photos and a recommendation after our holiday at Easter, and it's taken me this long to get around to it!! We went to Bluestone in Pembrokeshire for a midweek break as our Christmas present from my parents and the in-laws, and it was fabulous! We stayed in a gorgeous lodge, there was a huge emphasis on being green so we didn't feel guilty for being there, and we had some wonderful family time out. We took the boat to Caldey Island one day, and I really would've liked to just miss the boat back! It was so beautiful and the whole family were so relaxed and happy all day - I'd like more of this in our lives!

Above, my gorgeous family on the boat - and one of Finn finding the whole thing totally hilarious! And below, my beautiful girl who is growing up so fast, standing by the most perfect beach :)